Month two of 2015 in the books.
This past month can be described as full. Full weekends. Mostly full work days. My planner is full of scribbles and notes, of jotting down the workouts I completed and when. Full of reading some really great books that I didn’t want to put down.A full heart at the two baby showers I attended; I love seeing my friends so happy, so excited. I can’t wait to meet the babies.
Simultaneously, a heart that is still a bit broken, the shards of the brokenness stabbing me when I least expect. You would think that I would know by now that certain days would be harder than others, but it sneaks up on me every.single.time. On the whole I think I’m better, but I notice a lot of changes in myself, some good, some… so-so. It’s weird to be forever changed, to know there is no going back. On top of that, a person who is dear to me is going through a big life change and my heart is heavy for her. Sometimes being an adult is for the birds.
Overall, February was much better than January with only one tough day to get through (the Oscars and the one year of my mom’s memorial. Funny how grief and the calendar intertwine). I saw the Kingsman Secret Service which was an amazing movie with Colin Firth at his finest providing both laughs, drama and action making it the perfect date movie. We also saw Hot Tub Time Machine 2 which was ridiculously stupid and also funny, just more man funny. I feel stronger, trimmer and have more confidence than in months past which I attribute both to working out and also not giving as much of a damn about things. Planning for the summer has begun which means a puzzle of summer schools and figuring out which sitter will be free and when; I’m so very excited for this summer. In the same month we had both a bonfire in our backyard and a snow day. We celebrated a friends’ 40th birthday and took steps to make some new friends. I stepped up my a-game in the kitchen with some new recipes resulting in us eating out only once a week. I realize that this all sounds very boring but I guess that’s to be expected given the fact that it is the dead of winter in the Midwest, not a lot of exciting things are going on, no big changes in my life… and sometimes the status quo is ok!
How was your February? Anyone else dealing with the winter blahs?